Life As I know It! Pt. 2
So the summer has been alright, noting significant has happen, just plain old work and hanging out with chris. Got to make that money and spend time with the boyfriend. Its already basically the end of the summer for me, back to San Marcos on August 15, school doesn’t start until the 27th but spending another year in marching band so i get to go back early (don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing).
Been really thinking a lot, mostly about chris and I, our relationship and whatnot, I love him and i always will, as cheesy as it may sound he holds a special place in my heart and he always will but i feel like something has to change. See, i go to school, work in the summer, everything i do is for the future, I work hard and do my best so I can do what I want to do in life. And i know circumstances are different but I just feel like chris needs to try a little harder to go back to school, I push him and talk to him telling him that we are all here to help him, everybody wants to help, that we are all just waiting for him. Even if his immediate family isn’t willing to push him or they just think he should full fill his duty to his mom and help her out with her financial duties. What ever it maybe, and as bad as it may sound it’s time for him to do whats good for him. I don’t care what he wants to do in life, even if its something completely weird, I just want him to love what he’s doing. Anyways it’s not just the whole school thing, but I’m also ready to go to the next level of our relationship, we’ve been together for over five and a half years, i think it’s time we move in with each other, but then again that’s kind of hard with him practically financially supporting his mom, plus he doesn’t really have his own vehicle, so yea, i don’t think moving in with each will be really possible since i do go to school in San Marcos and it seems like getting away from san antonio won’t be easy for him.
So i’ve just been really thinking about that, I don’t know what to do, suggestion?
Oh, so today is my second day, really, kind of, sort of working out with my mom. Trying to lose wait my goal was to lose 50 pounds this summer but i got lazy! oh well starting over this week, goal weight is still 120ish and right now i weigh about 170ish.
Well all i can do for now is keep fighting for everything and anything i set my mind too!
sorry for the long post, but if you read it all the way through, Thanks!